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Tuesday, April 29

+thoughts, as usual.+

i finally remembered i needed to blog something down in case everything goes down in loving memory. the previous weeks have been fine, considering i have not been working, nor real studying. well if you call that fine, then i've got nothing to comment. i realised i needed to do something everyday, if not, i feel like a useless piece of crap, not contributing to the economy.

if my memory had not failed me, i only caught two movies during the course of the week, untraceable and awake. both really good movies as a whole. something different from the ones i would usually watch, but i'd love new genres to explore. untraceable's about this dude who wanted revenge, after his dad's suicide video got publicised and he wasnt too happy about it. so, he went to get back at these people, one by one, from the reporters, to the newscasters etc.. awake is one show about people not sleeping under anesthetics. how a woman could seduce a man to get his money, tries her best to make him believe that she loved him, and how he found out because he was still 'awake'. what a twist to the story in the end.

for the past few days i had completed studying my module 5, got through the test, and passed on the first attempt. next up is module 9, which i am going to receive only tomorrow. god knows when the papers are going to be. it seems like during the exam, there were many older people who were trying to clear the papers as well, hopefully this is the right industry for me, and hopefully, i will do well. i really have no confidence this time. did i make the right move this time round, for not studying now, and pushing it further till im older?

the friends have all embarked in their post polytechnic lives, some doing advance diploma, some hardworking ones into the local universities, and some doing private, while the richer ones have gone to pursue their degrees elsewhere around the globe. three years later, they would be ranks above me, while im still slogging out my life.
call it pessimisstic, but thats how i perceive it to be. getting that mentality from investment books, eg. retire young retire rich has made me change my mind for a little, and i really hope i start to think like one of the successful ones.

a few friends have been telling me about how good signing on is, and how good the pay is, doing nothing. well not exactly doing nothing, but doing simplier jobs because its under the 'government sector'. it really seems like a good choice, having to go through regimentation, and it really builds up a good foundation for your career. do i sound like im going to sign on already? well, i don't think so.

the mas selamat issue is still very much being talked about, and i seriously wonder how much is our PM going to say to not sack his dear deputy. i read forums and many have been arguing how private institutions would have sacked the one held responsible because he was 'paid' to carry that responsibility. now he has failed his job, he should get the sack. that really calls for a discussion doesn't it?

enough ranting, i shall get my blogging life back in place. btw, viwawa is addictive.

[[ Fallen Saint ]]*|23:21:00|
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Sunday, April 20

+the BIG decision+

i had quite a busy week, though i made zilch bucks for the entire week. it was very much talking to managers at interviews, and trying to understand what it really means to be in the financial services industry. maybe all that 'psycho-ing' did make me think too much about money for a moment, and i am stil very much contemplating about my final decision into stepping into an entirely new ground.

you could say i was 'blinded by money', but i was really sick of the many things in my previous job that lead to this big change. change is always going to be hard to be taken, be it positive or negative. time will tell i guess. making lots of money is very important, innit? talking about capabilities, papers, potential, its a very good time and chance to prove everybody wrong.

i can see myself failing, at a very high chance. howerver, one does not succeed until he fails one too many? okay, im going against all the odds. lets just give ourselves some time to try out new things. perhaps, this might work? i just need support.

[[ Fallen Saint ]]*|01:47:00|
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Thursday, April 17

+pissed.+

i thought i was nonchalant about people being late, not attending outings, or even, cancelling their attendance at the last minute. i was wrong! i actually blew up at a friend who had cancelled our appointment last minute. maybe because i was already on my way out. FWAH! talk about keeping promises; talk about being on time; talk about showing up.

maybe a string of events lead to it, but i am still very much affected by the whole incident. hopefully i cool down and see what can be done. some people are just not worth being angry over. =/

[[ Fallen Saint ]]*|21:50:00|
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Wednesday, April 16

+unemployment begins+

three days since the tag "unemployed" hung on my neck, and it has been rather busy, visiting agencies, looking for a permanent job. most of them were from insurance companies who never failed to surprise me with the immense speed they have to look for new candidates, maybe that is one reason why i fell in love with the industry. because they deal with money, business, they probably look at people who are looking for cash as 'needy' people who didnt want to wait too long. i'd probably fall in love with investments, making alot of money very soon.

i forgot to sum up my days at nippon. final day with the colleagues having my handing over presentation following by clearance by the supervisor. felt like the ORD mood suddenly kicked in cause it meant an end of an era and probably a start of another. lunch with the few colleagues i've worked with. final goodbyes. and off i am - a free man.

[[ Fallen Saint ]]*|12:39:00|
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Wednesday, April 9

+wonders of an email+

its amazing how email works. one click of the 'send' button, and everybody in the 'to, cc, bcc list' gets notified. my resignation announcement seemed to be dissipated within that second. wow. technology never fails to surprise me. i turn from 'nobody' to 'somebody' within that span of 24 hours. i received lots of questions, as to how come, why this, why not that, and its getting rather irritating. seems like a celebrity getting interviewed with the same questions over and over.

seven months working in this company has made me realised quite alot. i learnt many things by myself. many tasks i'm supposed to learn but i did not really handle it very well, and expectations were not really met. the workers have been a great bunch to work with. my hokkien definitely improved a great deal after that. learning to look at things from different angles, looking out for things which tend to be not present if you do not concentrate on it. too many things to learn, such a great place to learn but one can never stay in a place for too long if you want to improve and upgrade. guess thats all for the explaining. the last two days should be peppered with more talking to colleagues, and final goodbyes.

i have this feeling that talking to girls have made me think from their POV. actually, not entirely thinking, but looking from their angle have made me realise guys are mostly MCPs. i confess i am quite an MCP sometimes. there seems to be an emergence of female managers around, and i think as males, we gotta start working on that. i shall not continue this because its going to cause many arguments, like all gender wars result in.

i have this feeling of liking a girl all over again. this is a new one btw. LOL. and i'm still unsure about myself, as always. =/

[[ Fallen Saint ]]*|23:02:00|
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Monday, April 7

+karaoke weekend+

i have to write something here before this thing gets weeded off. sometimes its procrastination at work. i have so much thinking to note down, but many a times, i just forget when i log on. enough of whining, time for some serious updates..

work was mundane, as the usual weeks. it seemed like the resignation letter did make them notice me somehow. i was piled with work, the final few little one-day assignments i was tasked. till this day, i still wonder why i initially accepted the job offer. well, i did love the workers; they made me think back about bonds in army. they have been working for so many years they just got that thing in them, to look out for one another. the stress level is higher in private sectors, maybe that was why i had a hard time adapting. oh well, now its left with the final four days, guess the resumes i've sent are still not receiving a decent reply. i seriously wonder what people in HR do.

went for karaoke sessions, on sat and sun. with different people. of course, i enjoyed the sunday session more. kbox at chinatown means i got more freedom, better choice of songs, and less restrictions with the rules. maybe its the company. somebody who knows what songs you can sing, will sing that kind of songs with you. i just enjoy singing with you. =) saturday's session was at k-ster, i wouldn't say it sucked, but not that outstanding as kbox. maybe im just too used to singing at kbox lah. well, the company was great too, just that it was the first time i sang with an unfamiliar group. just too many first time (new environment and people), which makes that singing trip not that successful.

window shopping at the usual place (town) with the usual gang. guess everybody bought something, except me, who already spent two month's pay on the posh ASUS laptop. (currently im enjoying, hopefully its worth every single dollar spent). much changes to the shopping centres, guess everything calls for continual improvement. always reminding me that we all need to constantly upgrade ourselves too. argh, study plans is always something i cannot bring myself to sit down and think. i just need some really sound advice from people. and probably somebody to throw me a briefcase of cash.

[[ Fallen Saint ]]*|23:35:00|
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Tuesday, April 1

+financial interview+

its one of those days when i feel useless, battered and lost. my life's been pretty distorted of late, and i blame myself for it. i probably need more courage, to take up risks, that i would need lots of support from everybody i know.

i was at this interview yesterday (at this financial company), and i was pretty amazed at how they did a 'presentation' about their company, their industry. maybe that was how i felt i 'could not make the cut' in that industry. i couldn't really express myself as articulately as they could. the money was tempting, and the job prospects were very alluring as well. its a high risk job, with lots of money at stake. guess they say 'think big, earn big, win big' is true.

many people have been telling me to constantly upgrade myself, and i know the importance of that. choice of study seems to be the number one question that is spinning in my mind now, followed by the cost of taking up such a course in such a fast-paced society. guess i need to do all these planning, before i turn one year older. =/

you can email me to advice, talk, or whatever.

[[ Fallen Saint ]]*|22:45:00|
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